A whole new level of intimacy

Okay so I know that I should be blogging on my names and titles but God showed me something really awesome. I blogged about it on myspace but here it is again.
Today I had the realization that the same God that created Adam from dirt created me. The same God that breathed life into Adam, and then intimately walked with him through the garden. I know that we all thing that life began when our parents were in love held hands, and then nine months later the storke dropped us off on their door step. Seldom do we think of God creating us and having his hand on the entire process, and breathing that first breathe of life into us. We don't think that we can even be as intimately involved as Adam. Granted we don't have a garden that we are able to walk around in naked, but God desires to have that closeness with you. As I reach new depths in my relationship with God I realize that he creates opportunities for me to expereince his presence. Sometimes its in a room or crazy teenagers, but other times its in a room of just me in him. No matter where I am he creates a way for me to be intimately involved with him.

Welcome Back

Sorry I took a little media break but I am back. So while I was taking this little break, I did a lot more reading then I usually get to do. I have an official move out date, and most importantly I have set up payment plans on every possible debt I have. I have asking God to ruin me, like Craig talks about in his book it, and he is doing big time. God's reminding me of the passions that he placed in my heart, and he has put them in my face so that I cannot ignore them anymore. The best way that I can explain it is that God has poured some more gasoline on the fire in my heart that was beginning to fade out, now it's a huge flame that I can't sit here anymore and watch people hurting. I can't sit here day after day watching students hurt themselves, or their families hurt them. I can't sit and watch nothing to be done, because they think that he forgot about them but I know that Jesus came for them. I can't sit still at all because there is too much to be done. Welcome Back Jo Jo.

Aunt Go Go

When I began to type this blog my niece came and sat on my lap and said that she wanted to help. So I asked her one simple question, "why she loved her Aunt Go Go?" Here are her answers:

• Because I play hide and go seek with her every friday night,
• I let her play with my phone,
• I watch Cailou with her,
• and the best one was that I give her kisses.

Last year I moved in with my brother, his wife, and two kids, and prior to this I had never lived with anyone younger then me. It was a total lifestyle change for me. My niece and nephew are 3 and 5, so it makes for an exciting house. You can't leave anything out at all, and always always lock the bathroom door behind you because somebody will be in their with you. They have taught me so many things about the heart of God, that I wouldn't have been able to understand any other way but to see it through them. My niece is going to change the world one day, I just see it in her heart. She has such a love for others, and she has to be friends with everyone. Now my nephew is mister logic, you have to explain it all out to him, and you can't leave any room for questions because most likely he wil ask them. And if what you are saying doesn't make sense then he will call you out on it. My neice first started calling me JoJo, and some how that developed into Go Go. Now they will both argue with me that my name is Go Go. Sometimes They even call me Goanna. I will be moving out in a couple of weeks and I am so sad that I am not going to have them sneaking into my bed in the middle of the night, or spending every friday night playing hide and go seek with them.

My insecurities

Insecurities consume me every now in then, and they make me to feel like I am trapped inside of myself and that I am never going to be able to go to the next level. They make me feel that I am not worthy to do the things that God has called me to do. They make me ashamed of everything that God has created in me. Insecurities make me jealous of other people in their ministry, and makes me compare my ministry to theirs. Because of my insecurity this weekend I had a big fit with God, like a full out laying on the floor kicking and screaming fit. Insecurity has a way to get into my mind like a sickness and flow through my blood streams. It's like cancer, that keeps coming back, and every time it comes back it makes you weaker. But most of all my insecurities are telling God that he is really not able to do everything, and that I can't trust that he can use me a broken person. Why do we have insecurities?

Coffee Anyone

This week I wanted to talk about the different names and titles that I have. So why not start at the place that pays me money. I am a barista at J.J. Mocha, and I absolutely love it. We have really yummy coffee, and it's a really fun place to work at most of the time. The best part is the majority of the people I work with are Christians, so when any of us have a problem we are able to pray together about it. We also have really amazing customers, who we are able to speak into their life on a daily basis. We have all kinds of cool features like free wifi, and computers for people to use. We recently started serving lunch and that is going amazing. My boss is pretty cool about letting me off for church stuff so I think I will be working here for at least the next year. So if you are ever in the Burleson area stop by for a cup of conversation, and a little conversation with our awesome baristas.

The 411

I am really bad about keeping my blog current so I am going to strive to start keeping it more up to date. So here are some good updates from my life:
*I am moving out the second weekend of november, yay!
*I got a new job!
*I am going to start taking online ministry training classes!
*I have a really awesome friend who has given me all these things to move out with!
*My friend Carrie is moving home to Burleson!
*I am possibly going to Cambodia for a month this summer!
*I have that constant Christmas Eve feeling!
* 7 Switch students were baptized today, and these were all kids whose parents don't go to the church!
some bad ones:
*I am working at walmart, in the live pets department!
*My fish tanks at work, were vandalized with KKK symbols and I'm the only black person in that department(man I love small town life)!
*Satan is really attacking a lot of people around me!
How's everyone else's life going?

NO B.... @..NESS

So I usually wouldn't use that kinda language but it is the only word to describe what's going on right now. I am just so tired of how everyone around me has been doing things half hearted. And I look at myself and I realize that I have been doing the same thing. It's almost like I have been in a season of half heartedness, and in order to allow God to continue to take me to the next level I have to do what my boy P.Diddy says on making the band "No B.... @..NESS. So what am I going to do to stop this, epidemic in my life. Hmmm.. I could make a tshirt to wear around so that everyone know my point of view, or maybe a tatoo on my arm that says the phrase. Or, maybe I could just live a in such a way that shows what I am truly passionate for, and I could change my actions to recognize that my choices reflect those of Christ. So I would need to consistently, run my decisions by Christ and make sure what I am doing is really truly aligned with his desires for my life, and not just something that I am saying yes to.