Settled and Ready

Finally I am settled. My life is pretty chill right now so I can attempt to get back to blogging more consistently. So much has changed in the last couple of weeks, I don't even know where to start. I am moving into this new season of my life, and everything seems to be extremely simple. I'm not use to life being simple, I think from the age of 12 I have been busy. But I do know that I am excited to see what God is going to do in this season. I'm living back in Oklahoma with my mum, which is an adventure in itself. Over the last 2 years I got use to doing everything on my own, and now she's their to help. It's a transition but I love it. I miss Texas soooo much but I feel like I'm exactly where God wants me to be. I am planning on going back to school in January, but maybe August. I am not going to be a Switch leader for the next few months of my life which is weird. It has been such a huge part of my life for the last couple of years. Being involved has awakened some passions in my life that I forgot were there. My walk with Christ is reaching a level of intimacy and I feel that he is changing me from the inside out. I guess I'll end on my three things that I am thankful for this season.

3. The wonderful church(HPBC) grew up in, anytime I go visit I'm reminded of the simplicity of the church. They help shape me into the Christ follower that I am today.

2. All of students and leaders at Switch in FW, and everyone at JJ Mocha's. You guys all were my family for the last couple of years.

1.My mum, and dad. I still get that warm fuzzy feeling when they say I love you, or hug me. They seriously sacrificed a lot when they had me and my brothers. They aren't perfect but they are mine.

Big Move

The last two years of my life have been the most amazing, challenging, time consuming, breath taking, mountain moving, faith pushing, and so many other ways to describe my time as a Texan. After tons of prayer my time in Texas has came to an end. I feel that I have a clear direction of what God has for me in the future, and I am moving into a new season of my life. Because I am moving into this new season of my life I feel that pursuing school is the next step for me. The best possible place for me to go to school is in Oklahoma, so in the Fall I will be starting at UCO. Please be praying for me and this decision, I am definitely going to miss Texas. But I know that God totally has his hands on this move back home to Oklahoma. My official move date is the week of November 19th. Call me so we can hang out before then.

Just a little word

Psalms 33:16-21 "No king is saved by the size of his army; no warrior escapes by his strength. A horse is a vain hope for deliverance; despite all its great strength it cannot save, but the eyes of the Lord are on those whose hope is in His unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine. We wait in hope for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. In Him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in His Holy name."
Got this in an email Sunday, and it was a good reminder that I can't do anything by myself.

Pray With Me

Praying about an idea that I have to unite a couple local college and young adult ministries together. Please Pray with me. I think that are influence will be way bigger together than it will ever be apart.

In his image

Here is one for the wives, grandmothers, aspiring wives, and teenage girls with big dreams. Have you ever read about the Proverbs 31, woman and thought to yourself that I could never be her. That I can never fit those shoes. That maybe God meant to put a option number 2. Or a Proverbs 31S version, that comes out a little later for the same price, and then they lower the old version. Or maybe possibly Proverbs 32 was forgotten. Well I have been praying for years that God would miraculously change me into her. But I haven't had any success. I wake up late always, and I am super scatter brained. I forget where I put my keys, and I have lost so many cell phones I can't even keep count. The bottom line is I struggle with who I am as a woman, but you know what when I feel like that I cling onto Genesis 1:27 that says, So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

A Honest Random Moment

Last week I was so excited about the future for my life, but now this week I am starting to get impatient in the waiting. I am just ready for the next stage of my life to happen, and it's not coming quick enough. I know that the process is where I learn the most but right now I am really not liking the process so much. Just a little honesty from me.

Purity

Purity-- One of my favorite topics. Lately I have been trying to figure what does this truly mean for me. I don't mean just sexual purity because that is pretty simple, but what is my life at its purest form. And how can I daily live in this pure form. I am still trying to figure it out, any suggestions?

The Next 30 days

The next 30 days I am going to attempt and do a couple of things. I am doing this because I want to. I am doing this because I need to. I am doing this because it is going to make me commit, and I suck at that!

Just so blessed

So faithful,So constant, So loving, and so true. So powerful in all you do,You fill meYou see meYou know my every move. You love for me to sing to you. I know that you are for me. I know that you are for me. I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness. I know that you have come down. Even if to write upon my heart. To remind me who you are. So patient. So gracious. So merciful and true.

These are the words of a Kari Jobe song, and they totally remind that no matter what I do, no matter how many times I mess up, that God still allows me to climb up into his lap and hug his lap and just sing to him.

Hold on to your seat

I have this overwhelming feeling that I am on the verge of something big and I can feel God whispering in my ear saying hold on to your seat because the best is yet to come. I got some really cool plans for you so just get ready.

My God is bigger then

I watched church online last night, and I was totally reminded of the bigness of God. Just wanted to say that!

Sign Me Up For One of Them

This group of guys meet every Saturday morning at my work (JJ Mocha's) for bible study. They are usually early, and they always have a smile on their face. It's generally just me here because they get here so early, and they never rush me. They are all from different walks of life. This morning when I was chatting with the guys, I realized something. This is what I want in my future husband, a man who wakes up early, instead of staying in bed on his day off. A man that realizes the importance, and the need for accountability. A man who is consistent with simple obedience, and loves his family whole hearted. A man that is committed to his friends, as well as strengthning his walk with Christ. So, Dear God, sign me up for one of them.

Bearing my Weaknesses

So I have a secret. You have to promise to not tell anybody. I mean it no one. Shh. I hear you. Alright here I go. So I am a very impatient person, like super impatient. I have been wanting a certain laptop, and camera for a while. And I am pretty sure that I dream about, that's how bad I want it. In the past I would have just went out and got it. But I am practicing the whole saving, thing. But I am starting to get really impatient. So impatient that I try to justify it to myself. Pretty sad huh?

Set the example and they will follow

Set the example and they will follow. I have heard it said time and time again but never realized it untill now. It seems that with my team at work when I am in a good mood so are they, when I stay on task so do they. I wish I could say that every day I set an example for them to follow, but the truth is I don't. Sometimes I just don't want to wake up early, and sometimes I have a bad attitude all day. On those days it seems like the whole team doesn't perform well, or we all make tons of mistakes. The truth is if you are a leader the best thing you can do is Set the best example that you can every day, and they will follow.

She gave

Mark 12:44
For they all gave out of their wealth. But she, out of her poverty, put in what she had to live on, everything she had.
This verse is totally humbling me this week.

My peeps

Since it is Wednesday, my favorite day of the week I am dedicating this post to a couple peeps that I am with every Wed. Alright, here we go: Nick, is possibly one of the most awesome young men God has created. He is freaking crazy at the same time. And his lovely side kick Natalie is the probably one of the nicest people eva. God definitely created them for each other. And they are going to do something amazing. Then there is BGalley as I like to call him, this kid is hillarious. He has so much good advice, and he is only 15. He totally believes in all of his friends even when no one else does. Then there is Rochelle, I haven't known here that long but this chick totally mentors me and I don't even think that she knows it. I wish that she would cough on me so that I could have some of her sick leadership skills. There is a ton more people but This are 4 that God put on myheart today.

TOP 5 Weekend motivations, inspirations, and declarations!

5. God is in control, and I am excited about the plans that HE has made for me. HE is awakening desires in me that I didn't even know were there. And HE continues to bless me no matter how hard headed that I am.

4. Dave Ramsey is pretty much amazing. And I am getting out of debt, because I want to be out of my mind crazy intense about honoring God by having a giving heart and leading by example in every area of my life.

3. Watching students talk through struggles with each other is possibly one of the most amazing experiences.

2. I am not going to contribute to the alcohol industry no drinking, no going out to bars, nothing at all. I feel that alcohol has had a tight grip on my family for far too long. This is a generational curse that I am breaking right now. I am not saying that it is a choice for everybody needs to make, but it is necessary for me to make.

1. We went to Como this Saturday for a micromission, and I have been to Como many times before. But this time the reality of the poverty level was heartbreaking. The director said that over 75% of the students at Como Elementary received free lunches, seriously over 75%, and sit here and waste so much. There are houses in Como that look like the houses that are in Mexico. Man my heart was torn out and put in my face. I remember reading in a book one time that the author would pray that God would ruin him, and that is exactly what happened to me. And I am so happy to be ruined.

Modesty

I just want to ask every woman, lady, and girl whatever happened to modesty? Whatever happened to respecting your self? What happened to preserving your purity? I am constantly watching women with super short shorts, and their chest hanging out, cursing like sailors. Seriously we should guard are hearts with extreme force. I am so confused about how we let ourselves be minimized to nothing. God did not create us as objects, that are free to dress how and talk however we choose. He didn't create us to be sex symbols on the cover of magazines. There is a way to be modest and still be sexy. There is a way to have people to respect, because of the choices that you make every morning when you get dressed. I think that God has called us all as women to be something more, to do something more, to not become the stereotype. To not be a carbon copy of what the world says that we are. Be difference!

She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future.When she speaks, her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness.

Proverbs 31:25-26

My Big Day

Today marks the beginning. The beginning of something "BIG". I can't tell you what it is, but I can tell you that it's "BIG". I discussed it with God, and he said, "go for it baby girl." He has his hand all over this "BIG" thing. It is truly going to be great. It is great because it has God's hand all over it. No don't try and guess what it is just pray! The verse that, God has placed in my heart is Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans that I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." Hmm meditate on that with me! Until later, holla!

Man up and deal with it!

The season of life I am in right now is definitely a season of rebuilding, and more task oriented than ever before. I am constantly being pruned and broke down by God, I am learning so much in the process. But at the same time I am struggling with transitioning my attitude to accept this season. I think as women we are never content with what God has postioned on our plate, but sometimes we have to man up and deal with it.

Intimacy

Here, before Your altar, I am letting go of all I've heldof every motive, every burden,everything that's of myself, and I just wanna wait on You my God I just wanna dwell on who You are. Beautiful, beautiful oh I am lost for more to saybeautiful, beautiful oh Lord, You're beautiful to me oh beautiful here in Your presence, I am not afraid of brokenness to wash Your feet with humble tears oh I would be poured out till nothing's left.and I just wanna wait on You my God I just wanna dwell on who You are, who You areBeautiful, beautiful oh I am lost for more to say beautiful, beautiful oh Lord, You're beautiful to me oh Lord You're beautiful, beautiful beautiful holy holy holy You are You are holy holy holy You are You are holy holy holy You are You are holy holy holy You are You are beautiful, beautiful oh I am lost for more to say beautiful, beautiful oh Lord, You're beautiful to me and I just wanna wait on You my God I just wanna dwell on who You are.

This song takes me into a whole new level of intimacy.

I'm back

I have been gone for a while from blogging, mainly because I haven't been inspired at all. But man I have inspiration and blessings coming from all different directions. So I am coming back with a bang! So tomorrow I will holler at ya'll.