Being Pushed and Pulled

It's spring time, finally.  This is the time of the year where we all clean out our closets and garages and begin to prepare our flower beds.  You do all this weeding and cleaning to get a new start.  So far this year God has been preparing my heart for a new start as well.  He has been working on the contents of my hearts desires as well as my physical desires.  He has been pushing me outside of my comfort zone and pulling me closer to him.  I feel like he renewing my desire to be in love with him, and I am looking forward to where that love is going to take me. So for the past few monthsI have been waking up with a desire for so much more, and my heart is currently is a place of contentment and I love it.  I don't know what God has planned for me, but I totally happy with whatever direction he sends me in.

Haiti My heart

This past weekend I went to Passion Conference 2011. God wrecked my heart in a whole new way.  Passionate, is the best way to describe how I now feel.  He awakened passion that I have been missing, he pushed me to think outside of my comfort zone.  I think the biggest thing to gain is it's all about JESUS.  I was completely knocked to my knees and humbleness.  I realized how much pride I had inside of me, and watching these amazing church leader be totally humble about everything that was being accomplished for God's kingdom was breath taking.  Every person on staff, every speaker, every worship leader, and volunteer simply worked together to accomplish one goal, for us to understand that it is all about JESUS. I went with the intentions to have a really awesome worship experience, by golly its Passion, but God had something bigger in store for me.  Louie Giglio the first night made a comment, that God isn't individualistic,  He is personal. Talking about how a message or the Bible could be world changing for one person and mean something totally different for another.  And he said, "When we have glimpses of Jesus things SHUT DOWN."  So I began to pray that I would experience a glimpse of Jesus that would shut me down. 

For so long I have tried to put God in a box, saying you can have this part of my life, but not that part of my life.  Or you can send me anywhere  you want Lord, as long as it is in the United States preferably a big city.  But following Christ is allowing him to use you wherever he calls you, rather it is working right here in Edmond, Oklahoma or in Africa. My heart has broken for a Haiti since high school, but I haven't done much about helping this country. It started when I heard that Haiti is the poorest country in western hemisphere and the I had the opportunity to go to this country and I let slip away.  Then the earthquake happened and devastated this hurting country even more, a year later they are still in the building process, and there is 490,000 orphans, and 300,000 children in slavery.  

With all this being said God wrecked my heart for these kids, for their country, and for the organizations who desperately trying to help.  God called me to go, he not only called me to go, but he called me to go now.  So right now I am in the praying, and planning stages to go for a couple of weeks at the end of the summer.  Then possibly for longer after the first trip.  So please join with me in prayer. And donate now to Haiti Rising.