Have I become so "I" centered!

Lately I have came to realize that I have been so self-centered. Every decision that I have made has been a decisioned based on what my selfish desires are. I really can't think of a simple decision that I have made lately that has been centered on GOD! Why is it that WE as Christians do this, WE always want to know what God can do for US what he has planned for OUR life, when he is going to send ME a spouse, when I am going to be rich. Didn't he not send his only son to die for me, so that I could have eternal life forever in harmony. Man am I that narrow minded. Here I am, sitting back all self righteous, thinking that I got it all together and I am on the road to becoming exactly what God wants me to be and I realize that I am no where close. Have you ever had this realiztion, please tell me I am not crazy?

Tattoo

I am this totally huge tattoo freak, and every one of my tattoo's mean something personal to me. I feel that they all tell the spiritual journey of who I am! The first tattoo that I got was right before I graduated high school, and it was two little chinese charecters that says Jesus Christ, and it was suppose to symbolize that I was going to be walking with Christ through the next stage of my life. The next one was during my freshman year of college and I got a butterfly to represent the process of becoming free and flying on my own. If you know my story, you know how I was, I guess I kind of let myself become way too free. The next tattoo was at the end of that phase and it was my zodiac sign, and a little Jesus fish for the start of my new phase. For about a 6 month period I lived outrageously. I guarded my heart and had strict accountability. I didn't serve at church, and I allowed God to heal my wounds. It was a humbling period of my life. Last Easter I was baptized again, and I got a tattoo to remind that God was there in my beginning and he will be there with me to the end. The point of all of this is that I always have people ask me if I will regret my tattoo's when I am a mom or when I am in my career. To me regretting them is like regretting my story, and I live a life of no regrets. Because every good and bad decision has shaped me into the person God has created me to be in order for me to do the things that he has lead me to do.

Fringes

He stretches out the north over empty space
And hangs the earth on nothing
And how faint a word we even hear of Him
And yet – our eyes and ears and minds get all the candy
I sing for grace
For grace it lets me sing
And all I’ve ever seen or heard
Or haven’t seen or heard
It’s His
There is no other
All of this is but the fringes
And these are but the fringes
And all the world hinges
On His grace and on His word
It speaks things into being
And the spoken things revealing
The glory of our God and King
I’m stumbling upon things that aren’t mine
Things he spoke to life before time
Name one thing that’s not
One law or thought
He taught the clay
Molded it
Behold, He called the sheep
That’s why they came
Sheep! Who by grace get a peep
And make it cheap by calling it mine
By. Shane and Shane

"Behold, these are the fringes of His ways; And how faint a word we hear of Him! But His mighty thunder, who can understand?" (Job 26:14)
Man this song is powerful!! The boundaries of greatness!

Came to my Rescue

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek Your face
Lord all I am is Yours
My whole life
I place in Your hands
God of mercy
Humbled I bow down
In Your presence at Your throne
I called You answered
And You came to my rescue and I
I wanna be where You are
In my life
Be lifted high
In our world
Be lifted high
In our love
Be lifted high
Came to My Rescue
by: Hillsong United
This song is so dear to my heart. Falling on my knees in worship giving all I have! So there is something so powerfully humbling about falling on my face in front of God just soaking him all in. We are so blessed to be able to freely do this. I am so blessed to have a God that comes to my rescue and all I have to do is call.