Have I become so "I" centered!

Lately I have came to realize that I have been so self-centered. Every decision that I have made has been a decisioned based on what my selfish desires are. I really can't think of a simple decision that I have made lately that has been centered on GOD! Why is it that WE as Christians do this, WE always want to know what God can do for US what he has planned for OUR life, when he is going to send ME a spouse, when I am going to be rich. Didn't he not send his only son to die for me, so that I could have eternal life forever in harmony. Man am I that narrow minded. Here I am, sitting back all self righteous, thinking that I got it all together and I am on the road to becoming exactly what God wants me to be and I realize that I am no where close. Have you ever had this realiztion, please tell me I am not crazy?