Decisions, Decisions, Decisions!! #2

I have been in this attitude of prayer all day long and I still can not make my mind up. I really don't know which way that God is leading me and I am so torn. And it has made me really emotionally drained. I know everyone knows how much I hate to cry, and I feel like I am going to break down any second now. I have heard several times that the times that we loose it is when we are able to allow God to step in and take control of the situation. I know I just need to let go but I can't because I don't want to get hurt. Please pray for me today guys because I don't know how to make up my mind!

Significance

You want to be very significant in the eyes of other people. In the truest sense of the word you want to be recognized. You want to be heard. You want to stand out. You want to be known. In particular, you want to be known and appreciated for the unique strengths you bring. You feel a need to be admired as credible, professional, and successful. Likewise, you want to associate with others who are credible, professional, and successful. And if they aren’t, you will push them to achieve until they are. Or you will move on. An independent spirit, you want your work to be a way of life rather than a job, and in that work you want to be given free rein, the leeway to do things your way. Your yearnings feel intense to you, and you honor those yearnings. And so your life is filled with goals, achievements, or qualifications that you crave. Whatever your focus—and each person is distinct—your Significance theme will keep pulling you upward, away from the mediocre toward the exceptional. It is the theme that keeps you reaching.

Okay when I first took this test I didn't expect for it to get me right, but oh my gosh it has me down to a T. It is cool to step back and look at yourself, I am really trying to put myself in situations that I am able to develop this talent. I am really having trouble because I have notice that this specific talent has me coming off as a little bit cocky and rude. And that is not what I want at all. So what are some ways that you think that I can become successful role model?

He always takes care of me! Right?

So I was going to start writing a week works of blogs on how blessed that I am, but I am going to put that on hold. God stirred up some amazing things in me today. I went hiking from about 5am-2pm and took a couple of naps in nature along the way. I wanted to write all of this while it was fresh on my brain. As I sat in my car afraid to get out of my car because of the complete darkness. I don't mean kind of dark I mean really dark, no street lights no house lights, and all of the world sleeping. I get my flash light and my bag and I went. I set up my blanket to watch the sunrise, and I got to thinking why do I let fear paralyze me from doing the things that God calls me to do. Why do I not take the risk to jump to the next level, when I know that God is there to catch me if I trip. Do I not know that if God has given me a task to do he is going to take care of everything all I have to do is surrender to do it. I was reading back over my writings from almost a year ago, and all of my goals when I first moved here. I saw that I prayed that God would take me to the next level of intimacy, and he has. I prayed that he would help me to deal with the loneliness of being 220 miles from everything that is comfortable, and he did. So why do I still doubt that he will take care of me, when he calls me to do something. S0 I am proclaiming today that I am going to give extravagantly and live radically, and most important live a life worshiping undignified. I know longer care what people think I am living crazy for the Lord. So if you see me slacking in any way I want for you to call me out on my crap!

Family!!

I am so blessed with my family. I am one of those people who needs someone to call her on her mess quite frequently, because if someone doesn't do that I may get caught up in life. But my mother has no problem at all calling me out. Today I was talking to her about an issue I had with a certain person and she stopped me in mid sentence and it seemed as if it was God himself was calling me out. I recently have had my brother tell me something and it totally changed my attitude. I am so glad that God has given us family to make us remember who we are.

I have been reading this book that teaches you to memorize scripture by breaking it down for you and having you do research on certain scripture. I am really loving it. Today it had me read Romans chapter five, and there is a verse that I am sure that I have heard in the past, but it means more to me today. Here it is: "Therefore since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us." Romans 5:1-5

Read just what os om bold, and think about it. Think about the qualities you possess, think about how you perfected those qualities, and realize that is hope. And ho[e does not but us to shame!!