He always takes care of me! Right?

So I was going to start writing a week works of blogs on how blessed that I am, but I am going to put that on hold. God stirred up some amazing things in me today. I went hiking from about 5am-2pm and took a couple of naps in nature along the way. I wanted to write all of this while it was fresh on my brain. As I sat in my car afraid to get out of my car because of the complete darkness. I don't mean kind of dark I mean really dark, no street lights no house lights, and all of the world sleeping. I get my flash light and my bag and I went. I set up my blanket to watch the sunrise, and I got to thinking why do I let fear paralyze me from doing the things that God calls me to do. Why do I not take the risk to jump to the next level, when I know that God is there to catch me if I trip. Do I not know that if God has given me a task to do he is going to take care of everything all I have to do is surrender to do it. I was reading back over my writings from almost a year ago, and all of my goals when I first moved here. I saw that I prayed that God would take me to the next level of intimacy, and he has. I prayed that he would help me to deal with the loneliness of being 220 miles from everything that is comfortable, and he did. So why do I still doubt that he will take care of me, when he calls me to do something. S0 I am proclaiming today that I am going to give extravagantly and live radically, and most important live a life worshiping undignified. I know longer care what people think I am living crazy for the Lord. So if you see me slacking in any way I want for you to call me out on my crap!