My Calling

Every week I get super excited about my Wednesday, because I get to go to Pulse Club.  I take 4 hours of my vacation time every week to go to mentor, minister, and befriend a group of kids that a lot of people have given up on.  Truthfully, a lot of society has given up on youth all together,  and the simple fact that my group are from the inner city, they have an automatic two strikes against them before people get to know them.  I do work in a magnet school and most of the kids truly do want to go to school, but drive through the south side of Oklahoma city and you will get a glimpse of the hardships that some of these kids are dealing with.  There are houses that are held together by cardboard boxes, you see crack heads and drunks walking down the same streets that kids walk to school.  These are the obvious examples of what is going on, can you just imagine the things that are going on in their homes and even worse their hearts. Just thinking of the rejection and abandonment that they must feel, breaks my heart.

I am constantly thinking why, and how did God think that he could entrust me with such an important task.  How did he think that he could use me to accomplish anything, doesn't he remember my past failures, and my doubting him.  Does he not remember all those nights of running in the opposite direction of him.  Seriously, sometimes I think God has lost his mind.  About that time I feel a calmness come over me, a calmness that stills my heart, a calmness that says God will use me regardless of my failures and short comings.  He has a plan and he has choose to use me in that plan.  


....."Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine."
Isaiah 43:1