The Wilderness

The wilderness, the Israelites wondered around for 40 years, because of simple disobedience.  We always are quick to judge the character of the Israelites. Talk about their lack of faith, but the reality is that we are all like the Israelites in some way or another, I am always wanting God to prove himself to me.  I want to know the when, where, and how before I even think of stepping out in faith.  I know I am not the only one that does this, but I am so thankful for the patience of God.

God's Vision on My life

It's 4 am and I can't sleep. I was woke up by a screaming 1yr old, who desperately misses her momma.  Thankfully there is church online.  I think when I have kids and they are in this stage I am going to write a book on those nights they wake me up and I can't go back to sleep.  It literally took me an hour and a half to put this little monkey back to sleep and now I can't sleep.
Today I am going be talking about a vision that God gave me a few years ago, but it is just now coming to head.  I had a vision that God wanted me to start a discipleship group of teenage girls, a group that will be able to take a group of non and new Christians and help develop them into strong Christian girls. A group that will help them learn about building character, modesty being sexy, beauty is more then skin deep, and purity on a whole new level.  I am still totally in the praying stage, so if you want to pray with me it would be amazing.  I feel that this would be something to catapult, change in my school on the southside.

Short Blog at 12:16

So really this blog isn't even today but here is the thing I have had 2 kids latched to my hip all day long. One is 2 and the other one is 1, they are 18 months apart. Craziness I tell you. My cousin and her husband went to Vegas Baby, for 4 days.  Needless to say we are having an adventure.  Today I am going to talk a little bit about single parenthood.  I was raised pretty much by a single mom, and I think it is one of God's special things in this world.  There is no love like single parent love, they will work two jobs to put you through college and buy those Jordan basketball shoes that you just have to get. They do projects late at night with you even though they have to be at work at 6am, and they sometimes play the role of both mom and dad.  So for all my single parents I got a taste of your life today, I can't express how much I appreciate all of you guys and what you do.  

Pulse Club

Since I have been out of high school I have worked with youth, through Switch, community centers, and working at camps.  There is nothing more in this world that gives me the feeling that student ministry gives me.  I know with out a shadow of a doubt that God has created me to work with students.  I don't fear the teenager like most adults do, and I actual enjoy going to high schools and middle schools more now then when I was in school.  I've been totally blessed to have so many people in my life who knew that I was called to youth ministry and have given me so many opportunities to help develop me as a leader.

Now I am working with an amazing organization that has really had a chance to bring huge change to the Oklahoma City metro area. I have been working for the organization since January, but volunteering for about a year.  The opportunities that I am getting are things that I have prayed about for years.  I totally can feel God all up in this ministry in and I totally blessed to even be a part of it.  I am working on Southside of Oklahoma City at a high school, please, please pray for me and the ministry that God has entrusted me with.

7lbs down

I've lost 7 lbs, and its only day 4. Go me, go me.  I can't wait to reach my goal mini goals and eventual my goal weight. I can't wait to wear clothes, to get dressed in the morning and not layer.  To just settle with walking out of the door looking just okay, and to shop at stores that actually have my size.  Most importantly I can't wait to have my confidence in my outer beauty again.

Photography

Photography has always been something that I enjoyed but never though that I could be good enough to do.   I took some classes in high school and needless to say I sucked.  Mainly because I really just sucked at school all together in high school.  As I have got older I have spent countless hours checking out other photographers websites, reading their blogs, and I have to say the direction that the photography field is going is pretty awesome. Photographers like Jasmine Star, Melissa Jill, and Holli True have been such an inspiration, they are all women who photography blogs have become a part of my daily life.  They all are so honest and real in their posts.  I feel like they totally want to really help develop young photographers like myself.
So, how this all really came to head is I took pictures over Thanksgiving of my niece and nephew and they came out pretty good.  See I have always seen life in snapshots, I know it sounds crazy and a little weird but I truly have.  When I drive through the country I am always stopping and seeing different pictures that I can do in my head, but never really thinking much more about actually putting into action.  One of my favorite things is driving to old towns and discovering different places to shoot.  I have been doing this for years and I just now got a camera.  I know, I know its kind of weird but thats just me.  Well when Thanksgiving arrived and I was thinking what I wanted to give  my family for Christmas and the idea arose to have some professional pictures taken and make some really awesome albums of the kids. See my niece and nephew are my moms only grandkids and we cherish those little boogers like nobody business.  But in order to get really good pictures, it was going to set me back a pretty penny, and I am just a college student.  So needless to say that wasn't happening, I decided to take them myself.  I borrowed a camera read some online tutorials on how to work the camera, bribed them and spent an afternoon taking their pictures.
Since then I have taken a couple of classes at Baker Photo & Video, as well as a couple of different online courses.  I have spent all of my free time taking picture and learning about ISO, shutter speed, and aperture.  I  made the decision to give myself 6  months to really develop my skills, and really give this photography thing a shot.  If I fail or I really suck at least I can say I tried it.
Aight, good night.

21 days to form a habit

I am list maker, I don't know if it is just the satisfaction of crossing off and feeling like I have accomplished something, or if it is that I want remember things without my lists. But regardless of what it is, I love lists.  I schedule my year, quarter, month, and days.  If I don't have my list I usually won't accomplish things.  So I have set this goal for myself, to do a couple of things over the next 21 days.  These are all things that I have struggled with for far too long, and I am ready to move on.   So why 21 days? Well I've read that it takes 21 days to forma a habit, so I am going to give it a try.  Here is a copy of my list, once its posted I guess that means that it is law.  Please pray for me over the next 21 days.

I hate asthma

 

For the last 25.5 years I have suffered from this life sucking illness.  People who don't have it can't understand it. It is such a common illness so people just kind of right it off. But the thing about this common illness is that daily 40,000 people miss school or work, 30,000 people have an asthma attack, 5,000 visit the emergency room, 1,000 are admitted to the hospital, and 11 die all because of a common illness. To make it more personal it has held me back from running a mile, shoot jogging a mile, rock climbing, hiking, being outdoors, and most importantly dancing in the rain, and jumping in mud puddles.     Inhalers and breathing treatments have been a way of life for me, but I must say that it really just sucks.  Point is I hate asthma!!!!!!!!! 

I am sooo excited about Passion

I have always wanted to go to the Passion conference, I always hear great stories of the worship and the amazing messages.   This year I get to go, go me, go me.  It is just the thing that I need in my life. It's been so long since I've had a slam me in the face message.

A Photograph

A photograph is simply manipulating light in seconds. It captures life, moments of joy and pain, memories that are irreplaceable, moments that you'll never forget.  Photographs display bad haircuts and ashy elbows, as well as short prom dates and bad make up.  I have a 7th grade school picture up in my moms house which is a daily reminder of me sneaking and wearing makeup to school, needless to say I look a little like a hooker.  Then there is a picture of my brother with his buck teeth and flat top fade(oh how I miss the 90's).  I love how for my mom these aren't reminders of our awkward stages, but precious memories of her babies lives. Senior pictures, family photos, newborn baby pictures, and wedding albums, just think these are the things that you see in a persons house, this are the things that you creep on a persons Facebook.  Point is that time continues, kids grow up, awkwardness fades away, but a photo will capture that moment forever

Sunday Heroes

Every Sunday I plan on blogging about someone that I respect. In honor of Super Bowl Sunday and Black History Month, I felt the need to blog on Doug Williams, the first African American football player to lead as starting quarterback in a Super Bowl game win.  I know, I know a black quarterback, but this guy has mad skills, and character.  Truly an amazing guy.   He made 120,000 a year, substantially lower then any other quarterback, and when asked for a raise to 6000,000 he was denied.  So today I salute you Doug Williams.

Who I am?

I am a girl,  a mess up, a loser at times, lazy, mistake maker, clumsy, insecure but arrogant too, shy in new situations, outgoing when necessary, mentor, mentee, OU lover(shh don't tell my dad), mind changer, football enthusiasts, video game hater, pot smoker, liar, push over, harlot, complainer, excuse maker, non tither, but because of the wonderful grace of GOD I am beautiful, clean, redeemed, blessed, forgiven, and accepted as HIS own.

My Heart Is Crying This Out

Shawn Mcdonald sings and my heart melts, he seems to be able to encompass all of my emotions and capture them in a beautiful melody.  But here is one of his new songs.  All I can say is this is good stuff.


I just want to be even closer to you 
I just want to be even closer, I am yours 
You can have all of me, anything, everything 
I just want to be even closer 

A day without you is a thousand years 
A day without you is a million tears 
Tell me why do I run when I am in fear 
Why do I run when you are so near 
Spending my life out in the weather 
Been gone so long and I need some shelter 

Where ever you go 
Where ever you are 
I just want to be there with you
I just want to be closer to you 
I just want to be closer, I am yours 
You can have all of me, anything, everything 
I just want to be even closer 

I Will

I.
I will.
I will blog.
I will blog every.
 I will blog every single day of.

I will blog every single day of 2011.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11. About.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11. About what.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11. About what, who.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11. About what, who knows.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11. About what, who knows, but.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11. About what, who knows, but I.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11. About what, who knows, but I will.

I will blog every single day of 2011 starting 2.3.11. About what, who knows, but I will blog.